Tuesday, May 09, 2006

I just don't know??

I’ve also realized that I’m probably one of the world's biggest hypocrites.. Honestly, sometimes I really do wonder? What’s wrong with me? if I had anybody here with me, I think I’d ask them to slap some sense into me cuz I can't seem to sort out the things running through my head and I don't think I’m too stable right now.. At times, I wish my life could just be normal, but I also do realize my life seems a bit pathetic sometimes. Who knows? I don't know what to do... I don't know what's right... I don't know what's best... I don't know what to believe... some things I want really badly but I just can't have it yet so I’ll have to wait, but then everything gets misinterpreted... I agree. It hurts. I just don't know.

I know there's a balance to everything in life, but you know what's sad? I can't seem to find that balance with anything. Whether it's people, places, events, thoughts, desires, goals and everything... sometimes, I really just don't get it! Sometimes I know what I have to do, but it's hard to stuff the emotions or thoughts aside, either that or I go to the far extreme. I really just don't know what to do right now. Sometimes the little things seem so important to me and I end up making it a huge deal when it's really not and I haven't figured out how to just deal with it.


Oh well, time for bed.. Work has been great! =) only worked 8.5 hr this pass two days, yes!! gotta love that!

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