Thanksgiving.
My God! Is it almost December already? Wow! I have been a little busy to blog lately, so many things to write about and so little time and I apologize for that. (Whoever that may be or even to myself.) I've always felt that this blogs has helped me one-way or other. Nevertheless, I am here now, though it will have to be short. Winter is here and I just love it! It's been very cold (ok, maybe not comparing to other parts of the countries.) that I have to wear socks to sleep-something I dislike doing. At least, I get to go shopping; things seem so much cheaper since I've been to London. Oh I still need to post all my Europe trip journals. Oh man, typing it out is nothing; comparing to reading my very own handwritten. It's funny how I waited and waited and now that it's over and done. I can say that this trip did make me look at life a little differently. Maybe one can tell and one can't. I used feel like there's something missing in my life that I wasn't aware of it till now. It all makes sense now.
Thanksgiving wasn't what I expected. Even though it was great having dinner at Uncle's house, no mess to clean up nor did I cooked anything. I think Nancy was more in the mood, she basically did all the food for the potluck. It wasn't the same as having a small nice dinner of 15, instead of 30+ . Nevertheless, it was nice seeing the grand mama & papa. Too bad all the uncles, aunties and cousins wasn't there.
Funny how something that would have bother or pissed me off-suddendly didn't matter too much. This was what happened: I was on my way to work on Sunday. I decided to stop at Target for a Christmas tree and also stopped off at Albertson (supermarket) for some Sobe green Tea and Hot pockets for Lunch. I used one of the self check registers and requested $40.00 cash back. I was in a rush and had forgotten the about the $40 until I got into my car and I just realizes it. I didn't bother going back to check, I figure what's the point? It's too late. I admitt I was a little sad about it, but I was over it by the time I got to work. Maybe it's because I'm so used to losing money whenever I'm a little buzz, like 2 weeks ago when I lost $60 and was over it pretty quickly. Like they say you lose something, you'll gain something back.. =X beside a lesson I hope.
Today I was in the mood to wander around B&N to see if I found something interesting. You know, just something different that might inspire me to cook! I don't know when and how, maybe for past year I've lost my interests in cooking. I can tell when I keep buying lunch at work and the stuff I've been cooking is missing that little something.. Oh well, nothing today maybe next time. I was debating whether to get some Cold Stone? For some odd reason, ice cream always makes everything seem better –whether I’m happy or sad. *_~
Can't believe Europe is Over! (Re-post from Journals)
It's amazing how time passes us by so quickly! It's been more than a month since I came back from Europe. Can't believe I'm back to reality. Seem like it was a dream, but I did see a lot of amazing things and places. Maybe one day in the future, if I were luckily enough I would love to go back w/ friends or even w/ that special someone. Next time around, I would love to learn some French for Paris. At first, I thought I wouldn't like Paris at all. Since everyone say the people are rude and mean in France. (Knowing me, I can't stand people w/ no manners.) Unexpectedly, I can't believe out of all places, =) Paris was place I love the most! People were so nice; I wonder was it b/c of my terrible French accent that made them a little nicer to us? Or maybe b/c they knew I was trying my best to speak their languages? Whatever it was, it was worth it. *_~ What else can I say? Apart from that I love it. I definitely can't wait to back to Paris!
Before this trip started, I was excited that I would meet some new friends. At the end of the trip, I learn that it wasn't really what I wanted and I'm ok w/ that. Don't get me wrong, there was a few that was pretty sincere that I didn't get the chance to really talk to them. (Hopefully they will decide to come to the Bay Area to visit, so I can take them around.) Then again, there were a few fake peeps that I just can't stand and I didn't really care much for nor bother, only the exception of a friendly hi when I see them. I know I told Linda that I wanted to meet new people and I do, but if they are not cool then I’m not going to bother with them. I might not have a lot of friends, but at least its people who are sincere and not fake and selfish.
While I was typing out my trip on this blog, I felt like I was back in Europe once again. After I was done posting. It made me realize a few things about myself that I ever thought or knew about and things that I won't tolerate from others. Maybe this trip will make me a better person, maybe it won't. Just maybe I have to learn to accept myself the way I am and that people either accept it or not to be part of my life. It's funny how things are. You don't know how lucky you are until things goes wrong and it really makes you appreciate the things and people around you. Believe it or not, I've learned a lot from this trip or from Wendy- even things she doesn't realize. One thing for sure is that I don't ever want to be like her, I know there is people way worst than her in the world, but the idea that she's family makes it worst. It's good to have self confident, but not to the point where you're going to put people down or even be rule to people- just because you think you're better. It makes you have no class being a B*** to people and for me to have to watch it going, it just makes me want to slap some sense into her. I know I sound a little piss, but after the way she treated me. What more can I say? She has changed from bad to worst, maybe she hasn't realized that she definitely turned into a selfish silver digger, (not a gold digger yet, since she did pay for some of her trip.) but it's something I disapprove of. Dude, you have 2 hands.. Why can't you pay for your own stuff or trip? Or simple don't go if you can't afford it. She's luckily to have family who cares for her, but it doesn't make it right to take advantage of them, it pisses me off more. Just remember that you can lie to anyone but yourself and because of her, I think I'm just lucky for being me w/ people who cares for me.
