I know I can do much better...
I know it’s been a long time. Here I am? Thinking what I should write now? So much on my mind yet I’m not even sure where to start? Ok, I guess here goes nothing.I’m been very disappointed w/ myself lately! I just feel like getting away and just figure what the hell I want with my life? Would back to school make a different? Would I be wasting my time? I’m not trying to say I’m lazy, I know I can do it. Would it make that much of a difference. Of course, school will help yet I don’t know whether I want to spend the next few years obtaining the degrees- it you know what I mean. I’m not that young anymore. Why am I’m so disappointed w/ myself? Well, I know I can do so much better w/ my life, yet I don’t. I had a long talk w/ God yesterday to give me the courage to find my drive and to over come my phobias. Don’t get me wrong; I’m not complaining-even though I sound a bit pessimistic right now. I do appreciate my life, after all I’m finally traveling; I’m loving it though I have so much places & things I wanna see. I guess all I need is some alone time away from everything to sort what I want and seek that drive. Yet, I don’t know if I have the time off to do so.. But I know I just have too!!! I guess I need to do a day trip, which I have a few in minds, just need to figure which one and when to do it? Maybe when I come back from Seattle.
Lastly, I apologize to some of you that I didn’t get the chance to email you guys back. It’s been crazy at work to email and I’m just not in an emailing mood to email people at home. =( sorry… Oh well, I think I better get going. =) Hope all of you guys are doing well.. I do miss ya!
