Sunday, November 20, 2005

Day off

Whew!!

I didn't get a chance to post Friday morning, since things continue to be especially busy at work and I didn’t get off till 7:30 in the morning. Thinking back to my last post, I can't believe it is already another Sunday. I am busier at work now more than ever, and it won't slow down until probably January. Friday marked the official beginning of the weekend - Yes, I've been excited all week b/c the weather is gorgeous, sunny, warm, and crisp all at the same time (hello, November!) but the big excitement is that we’re going down to LA. - sort of celebrating Linda's b-day -since she didn't want it too be.. Funny part is that I’m just excited that I don’t have to work. All and all the trip was aright, although we spent a lot of the time in the car in traffic. But I guess I love most about road trips is that it’s so relaxing.. whether I’m driving or not- looking at the road somehow seems so peaceful… I guess you guys can relate to it. You know how your mind wanders off and you start thinking about everything that happen and wish will happen in the future.



I cannot believe, again, how quickly the weekend went by, and that I am now sitting on my couch sipping tea on Sunday night- instead of working my behind off at work. Yay!! I just love it! The best part is I'm here writing my blog, I know it sounds a bit lame.. but it just feel so good when I'm here. The three blogs I read regularly have been pretty quiet the past few days. I am guessing everyone is already in the throws of Holidays preparation and I know I be join them soOoOon.. Maybe one day I have the guts to comment their page and tell them how much I’ve enjoyed their life experiences and how much I’ve learn from them, but for now I rather stay quiet…

The other night I had a really long talk w/ God and asked him for a favor or two, somehow I felt as though God gave me a few sec. of his time for me and I thanked for things I sometimes have taken for granted. Okok, I complain an awful lot about work and life in general, but I do realize how lucky I am. As much as I don't like my job, at least I have one w/ cool peeps. I have an amazing family- it's not perfect but it's mines-especially my little precious niece- we're a weird bunch, but i love them all !! My family and friends are healthy and I have my own health, as well. I have a few kwel friends-you don't really know how many people care about you until you have to go through a year like I had or hell.. yet there's this incredible group of people (friends n family) who have been there for me whenever I needed and I’m so thankful for it, even though at time it don’t seem like it. Anyhow, I am feeling the need for some creativity output for myself, some sort of outlet for the things that I have kept within for so long. So, hopefully in among my next posts I’ll have a few projects to tell.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Thanksgiving !

Yesterday my bad mood hit a peak. Many things were hitting me at once, and I couldn't deal. Work is just stressing me out lately. Sometimes, just when I think I'm justified in my feelings of paranoia, something happens that makes me wonder if I'm just being an insecure idiot who expects too much. Anyway...I got myself calmed down enough to see straight. I realize it's been a long time since I've updated. After my last post I went through a long period where I had nothing to say. What can I say; life has gotten in the way of my posting time n’ thoughts.




Thanksgiving is finally coming and we're having Thanksgiving dinner this year. Why? Good question. It's obviously not a Chinese holidays that anyone here observes. It’s funny how so many people around the world are celebrating Thanksgiving toOoOo. Since most people have no idea why it even exists, or for that matter, what it consists of – beside the Indians and Mayflower Pilgrims. But I don’t care, I just can’t wait to have some good food w/ family, laughter and playing poker w/ friends afterwards…

*_~ I'm cooking a turkey, for the second time ever n’ yes I’m making my Cranberry Honey Turkey again! This year I’m making everyone bring a dish, even though Thanksgiving is not a major holidays in our culture, I just like the idea that everyone is together for a nice dinner. As much as the holiday is about eating good food, it’s more about being thankful for what and who we have in our lives. I feel so grateful this Thanksgiving that my family is here to celebrate it with me, and that we will share the table w/ my other close friends. Sometimes when we wonder what’s right in our lives and what we do have, we only need to look across the table to see how lucky we really are. Eventually this will become a new tradition for us- after all we are Chinese-Americans.