Good-bye blogger!
Life has it's up and downs! It's
really time for change and to be who I really am? This blogs has been w/ me for a while now- through good, bad and times where I question life? I thank you for those who reads my blogs, it means a lot to me.. as someone whos' life at be boring at times.
haha.. where am I going? actually no where.. just thought it was a time for a big change in my life! One day, I'll come back here and hopefully see things differently !!
Good luck to all!!
=) Time for bed!
I know I can do much better...
I know it’s been a long time. Here I am? Thinking what I should write now? So much on my mind yet I’m not even sure where to start? Ok, I guess here goes nothing.
I’m been very disappointed w/ myself lately! I just feel like getting away and just figure what the hell I want with my life? Would back to school make a different? Would I be wasting my time? I’m not trying to say I’m lazy, I know I can do it. Would it make that much of a difference. Of course, school will help yet I don’t know whether I want to spend the next few years obtaining the degrees- it you know what I mean. I’m not that young anymore. Why am I’m so disappointed w/ myself? Well, I know I can do so much better w/ my life, yet I don’t. I had a long talk w/ God yesterday to give me the courage to find my drive and to over come my phobias. Don’t get me wrong; I’m not complaining-even though I sound a bit pessimistic right now. I do appreciate my life, after all I’m finally traveling; I’m loving it though I have so much places & things I wanna see. I guess all I need is some alone time away from everything to sort what I want and seek that drive. Yet, I don’t know if I have the time off to do so.. But I know I just have too!!! I guess I need to do a day trip, which I have a few in minds, just need to figure which one and when to do it? Maybe when I come back from Seattle.
Lastly, I apologize to some of you that I didn’t get the chance to email you guys back. It’s been crazy at work to email and I’m just not in an emailing mood to email people at home. =( sorry… Oh well, I think I better get going. =) Hope all of you guys are doing well.. I do miss ya!
Food Poisoning
It’s Friday noon and I feel a little better. I’m going to have a little porridge, some food at last! Yay! I wasn’t feeling well Tuesday’s night, so I call in sick. On Wednesday, I had really bad cramp and vomit etc. By noon, I had a Whopper Jr, but that came all out. Next thing I know I was getting cold chills. I kept shivering to the point of fainting, but thank god I didn’t.
Thank goodness! Joanne and Johnny picked me up, drop off my car and brought me to the hospital. By the time I got there, it was a little past 6pm. Spent 3 hours waiting in E/R waiting room- feeling like s*** and nervous, since this was my first time there. I don’t understand why they take so much blood from you? It didn’t hurt at all, so there are no excuses for me not to donate blood as long as I don’t look at it. I was treated for dehydratation and was told that I had the stomach flu. They gave me some medicine and I was put on a clear liquid diet for 24 hours, which was not bad at all, though I spent the whole day yesterday just sleeping on and off. Just too tired and weak from doing anything- beside some TV here and here.
Basically I work only 2 day last weeks, which I don’t mind if I actually did something. Oh well, it’s going to be tough working a whole week, but after that I’ll be going to Thailand and Hong Kong for 2 weeks. Yes!
Informericals + insomnia = ????
It's Friday! Yay! I haven't been sleeping well. I guess I started out the week out wrong! For some reason, this week I've just been feeling down. It was a hectic week overall but I just felt sad. No particular reason I don't think, maybe it's the flu. I try to avoid it once, but this time I don't think I'm winning. Maybe a flu shot perhaps? It' just harder for me to smile this week at work, that's a big deal. I wanted to call in sick so bad but didn't, since Mike's on vacation and there's no real back up. Luckily, the past few days I've been getting off super early -2 days I didn't make my 8 hours, which is good. =)
However, I was a victim of insomnia the past few nights and had to watched some TV until the wee hours of the morning, there was tons of silly infomercials, people trying to sell some crap that only silly insomnia peeps might buy, I figure people watched these infomercial because they're bore or there's nothing to watch on tv, then they get creative- thinking this piece of junk would really improve their life. (ok, I'm guilty of that! Haha.. Remember the triangle sandwiches maker? Where you can make some sort of triangle "hot pocket" type of sandwiches, muffins or pancakes etc.) I guess, the only infomercial I can't stand are the real estate ones- come-on now, people must be desperate to think you can make that much money! If it's too good to be true, then it's not. Yup, I'm being skeptical again.. Okok.. I really have to sleep now..
I need to chill and relax.
Anyways, the weekend - the weekend! The weekend was good. I got only a few things done, although not nearly as much as I’d hoped. Basically I was jumping from one thing to another, especially Saturday. There was hardly any time to breathe, but that’s fine, because today I’m well rested. I have to appraise Jane for Tyra’s last minute b-day party; she really did a lot to make this happen. I didn’t even make anything or help at all. If you know me at all, I always try to make something. But this year, I told Jane if she wanted something I’ll just buy it at Costco, it’s just so much faster. Ok, I think I need some inspiration to actual be inspire to cook something.
I can’t believe my little baby turned 4 years old, time sure pass by quickly. It’s amazing how tiny she once was and now she’s running around the house like she owns everything. Seem like the family is getting closer nowadays, which is something I’ve hoped for a very long time ago. The family circle is getting bigger and happier- things are turning around in a really positive ways. I can’t believe Claire is so big now; she’s the cutest 1 yr old w/ an attitude. =) gotta love that! It’s funny how Joanne and I were talking about kid’s party these days as we drove off to Walgreen to buy a Bingo game for Tyra’s party. Man, back in the days if we got a birthday cake, some pizza and chips for our birthday- that was all we needed. But these day, a little kid’s birthday –everyone goes all out to celebrate this occasion, especially the presents. No wonder kids are spoiled these days! (Ok, I’m guilty and a hypocrite for what I’ve just said.)
Ok, I liked this balance of letting myself get some stuff done, but not try to get everything done. For instance, in addition to doing co-workers’ taxes, I cleaned up my list of things to do. While I normally would have felt it necessary to finish everything on the list, I stuck to just doing what I can do w/ out that rush. Maybe one day this next week, I can take my time and finish the whole list off. This will keep myself from going crazy and doing too much and getting frustrated and instead letting myself let some stuff go and have some down time? Let’s hope I remember that from now on, I need to chill and relax. So here I was lying in bed not sleeping, thinking about all of this, I realized that I’ve been working at my current company for 2 years in April. Wow! Time does pass by quickly huh? Reading back on all my past journals, I can’t believe I’m still working here. Things are so much easy now, I think I’ve become a bit comfortable working here –I’ll definitely miss this place when I do decided to leave in a few years.
Even though, I’m not a big fan of Chinese New Year.. I always find myself cleaning my room and washing my clothes that very day of Chinese New Year's Eve. I guess, somehow this has become a tradition without me actually acknowledge it till now. Anyways, I was amazed that I got more red envelopes aka lucky money than last year. Hmmm.. Can’t help but wonder if wealth is for those born in the year of the horse? =) I already know what I’m going to use the $$ for.
You know, I have so much I could write about right now, but I just don’t have the energy. We will see if tomorrow brings that energy needed to make a good post flow. Hopefully it will be a nice day as well, ’cause I would like to take a relaxing walk on the pier –if not, I’ll settle for the bookstore w/ a cup of latte. =)
For now, I better go to sleep!! Good night ya.
